Thursday, November 17, 2011

Happy Birthday To Me!

WOW I am 40 today!

 I thank the creator for allowing me to get here! I thank my ancestors for their continual support and guidance and I thank my Mother for providing me my first GREAT Ceremony.... Birth! You all arranged where I was born, how I was born,  when I was born and to whom I was born ! You all set the stage for the being I am and am striving to become!  For this I am thankful and eternally grateful!

So what do I do with this gift?  How can I be a better person? Who's life can I touch and make a difference in? What mark will I leave that is positive and will last long after I have had my last GREAT ceremony?

I work continually toward and I look forward to the wisdom in the answer to these questions. It is getting clearer. To be continued...

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Rain Rain go away... No WAY!


I am just so grateful for the cleansing of this thunderstorm the day Before my birthday!

I love the rain esp thunderstorms! I either get a charge of energy or I power down for dream time! Either way the rain is a cleansing. It washes away bad feelings, sadness, anger, aggression, and just about any other bad feeling that is just hanging in  the air! It wipes the slate clean, and clears the way for a new start! It also nurtures the seeds sewn in positivity! 

 Today ...  I powered down. I want to calm myself and be settled for the next wave of bounty, good will, prosperity and love I feel coming my way! I do not want to miss a thing! I was excited and welcomed the rain today!

So next time the rain comes get excited! Release the hurt, pain, anger, anxiety, fear or any energy that has been blocking your way! Let the down pour wash it away (literally or figuratively your choice)!  Soak up the power of the storm or snuggle up and receive your dreams, and when the sky clears... so will your path!

Peace and Love!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Instant parenting just add Ritalin!

Greetings Beloved!

I was at a park Sunday and a group of people got out of a car in front of me.  It just kinda got me to thinking!
First, I saw a man get out of the passenger side with a very small child about less than 1 year old. Then a woman got out of the back with another child about 2 maybe. Now they got out in a few seconds so those babies COULD NOT have been in any car  seats! Next the young woman who got out the back had on blood red 4 inch platform stripper shoes! What kind of play time are those babies gonna get?  I was talking to two sisters and we all just raised our eyebrows and continued our convo and then we all gasped cause we heard a loud thud! We looked at the car again and a little boy about 3 was lying on the ground! There was another woman standing over the poor baby (not picking him up) tugging at his coat like "why won't you get up?" Again why is a toddler bouncing around in the back seat unrestrained and then your crazy behind flings the door open so he falls out right on his head and you show NO sympathy or compassion you just want him to hurry up! She saw us three mothers looking so she eventually rubbed his head for about 2 seconds B4 they walked into the park! What made it soo bad is she looked like she was older than the pole dancer shoe MOM! WTH!

Which brings me to my point.What the heck is wrong with these parents! They ignore their children and then act surprised at, embarrassed and stressed out by,  and " need a break" from  the child's behavior! It infuriates me and I will tell you why....

 I was raised by an old school mother. She cooked all our meals.We had bath time. We had a bed time. We said our prayers.We said grace before we ate. There were specific actions that would not be tolerated AT ALL or you suffer the consequences! We had very little money but we never knew. We knew to stay out of grown folks business ( whatever that was) cause it was Never conducted in front of children. We better not be caught listening to grown folk talk even if we were in the same room! She allowed us to be children. That was our job! Be a child, do your schoolwork clean your room,play, go to church, love GOD, love your siblings and family, never dishonor them by behaving badly or being unclean! And inreturn... She was a mother! We were made to feel safe, warm, secure and loved because she put time in with us. She didn't have to worry about us speaking out of turn, or disrupting class because she was active in establishing respect, manners, morals and sense of  family  at home! She took her responsibility for the grooming of her children!  we knew that any miss behavior would reflect badly on the family as a whole! So to "mess up" hurt us too because we knew we were taught better!

I have been a mother since I was 13. I took the position very seriously! I wanted to breast feed my baby at 13 because it was best for her! My Mom helped me even though she never breast fed us. I knew I needed to finish school and go to college to make a life for me and my daughter! I had dreams for  her future! When my other children came along I was a nursing student and a new RN. I cooked for my babies! No microwave meals! Yes they had Mc Donald's on special outings and things but they were fed home cooked meals 99% of the time!3 meals a day!  I worked night shifts on the weekends for years because I was not sending them to daycare! They were bathed and ready for bed before I left! They were my responsibility so I felt it my duty to sacrifice in order to do what was best for them! YES I was tired! YES I cried at night waiting for the bus cause I had to leave my babies in the bed to go  to work!  I never had a break! I never even thought of getting a " BREAK" from my children cause I was their mom and I took the actions to bring them to this world so I volunteered for this!  They never stayed with my Parents, Sister or their other grandparents not because they wouldn't keep them but because I took my job as MOM seriously! I was tired, stir crazy, and just plane crazy! I would KILL to talk to a person OVER the age of 4! I thought 4 hours of sleep a night was a full night's sleep! There was a bout 4 years there I am still blurry about! LOL but I made it through! I am proud! My babies are worth it!

I said all of that to say this. When I see the type of "parenting" like I saw in the first paragraph. I get angry! When I hear these Mothers complain about "he don't listen".. " he don't go to bed"..." I need a break"... "he's out of control".  I sit and watch them to see what interaction is happening during the time the child is not " acting up" And nine times out of ten..... there is none! Baby is showing you a book, you are too busy on face book, or having an inapproriate conversation in front of baby. Baby is hungry... you buy chips or cake and soda and hang out a few more hours. You are just having a regular conversation with another adult and your 8 year old child feels free to join in the conversation.. You think it is cute and don't check him for being rude and disrespectful! These are just a few examples!

Um I am not sure why you are surprised at the behavior of your child! Your child looks to you  to teach them about the world and life! They look to you to provide them with food, shelter, protection, love, entertainment and security. If you are constantly "trying to keep him/them busy cause I need my time" with DVD's , TV . video games, day care, school and cell phones while you  "live your life" your children are being groomed by those things! You are not putting the work in to let him know what behavior is tolerated and what is not! You are not even showing you care about his behavior unless it irritates or embarrasses you! You are not providing him  with the proper nutrition ,grooming or rest to allow him the chance to grow and learn at his best! You are not providing a schedule that he can count on that builds his trust in your responsibility and commitment to  mantaing a stable, secure and safe environment for him! All he knows is "i'm gonna  light this fire she don't care" " momma says that so i will too"... " she is not gonna feed me so why should I listen",  "I am hungry, tired, cold and scared...why can't we go home? Then of course this poor child is thrown in bed at an ungodly hour ripped out of bed early for school/ daycare in the morning not given breakfast or a Poptart (if he's lucky) day after day then ends up with" behavioral problems "and needs to be evaluated for medication. Unfortunately "Hey if he is diagnosed I can get a check for him" is the response to this senerio all too often! Why you ask? Well... #1 money and  #2 The child is sedated and therefore you do not have to correct behavior that was caused by your poor parenting in the first place!LAZYNESS and Selfishness!

 My heart goes out to all the babies caught up in realities like this! I get sad and angry! I pray and I do my part by keeping true to the old school parenting with my children and any child I encounter! Our friends are amazed that their children do not exhibit the same behaviors  (that drive them crazy at home) in our home! What is expected of our children is expected of all the young ones that come in our midst! A few things are; Respect your elders and your parents at ALL TIMES, respect each other, Look out for the little ones, be helpful to each other,Washing and Prayer is made before you eat, Greet your ancestors each morning, ETC!

This is the longest post so far! Whew! I just get angry cause people want the fast track for everything these days even parenting! We need to stop the cycle! I am leading by example.. if I can commit at 13 anyone can!
Peace and LOVE!

Monday, November 14, 2011

Starting fresh

Morning!

This weekend was about new possibilities and affirmations of prospering in, life , love, spirit, finance etc! I took a deep drink of the powerful full moon on 11-11-11 in the midst of family and friends. We rejoiced in the oneness of all and acknowledged  and honored our Ancestors, Elders, women, children and men! There was a feeling of connection to the to the universe that made you know that all  you ask has already been given ... you just have to accept it freely and never doubt!  I am still vibrating on that energy and do not intend on letting it go!
                                                            The Full Moon of 11-11-11

I am refreshed and renewed! I have a caught my breath and am ready to receive the bounty that my carefully sewn  karmic seeds have blossomed into!

How did you spend this power filled weekend? I hope it was a wonderful for you as it was for me!
Peace and love!

Friday, November 11, 2011

11-11-11

Ok today is a good day to just be Quiet and see what happens!

Triple 11s and the full moon is still upon us! Powerful! 11 has always been a number that reoccurs in my life! I feel pretty empowered today as my Earthday approaches on the 17th! 1s and 7s follow me everywhere! 111 in numerology is a ‘power number’ related to fresh modes of thinking applied to new cycles in life's play .   I am preparing to embrace the forces that fuel my ethereal recharge and welcome the new cycle !

 I embrace this day and all it has to offer me and pray you are in line to receive what is in store for you !

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Something Lovin...

Morning everyone!

I woke up this morning in the mood........ to Bake!

It's cool outside, the leaves are falling, it's a bit cloudy... perfect day to get some baking in! I love to bake and my sweetie made it much easier getting me this BHG standing mixer! I was set on a KitchenAid but he didn't know the difference bless his heart and I have no complaints! 

 Anyhoo, I made 2 7UP cakes last week and they came out soo yummy I will make a few more and start making my sweet potato pies! I may even throw a sour cream pound cake in the mix! Oh yeah I am on the jazz! I have to make a few cause when I bake I have to send my Mom at least 2 pies and she will get a 7UP cake too! I also have to send a Bday cake to Hubby's Grandfather for his birthday! I baked him one a few years back and he said it was one of the best cakes he ever tasted! I was soo proud cause he is OLD School and knows what a good cake is!

 Baking and cooking are passions of mine as you will see! I love the food network but I tend to shy away from the competitive cooking shows cause it cheapens the art and disrespecrts the ritual of cooking! An angry,stressed, scared, or pissed off cook will put those emotions in their food and I don't think anyone would want to have that served to them! I love the feeling of making people feel good with good food! I sing and put love and healing into everything I make! Even when I make dishes I don't eat! I got it from my MOM. Anytime she was cooking she sang, took her time, was thoughtful and infused love into her food! She even made a chicken she was washing "dance" for us once! This is why  I know there is a transfer of energy directly from me to the food I make so it is a ritual I take VERY seriously!

Have I inspired you to to pull out those cake pans or just a knife and fork? LOL but seriously, just take the time to think good thoughts, sing  your favorite song, or just smile when you prepare any food... it goes a long way!
Well the butter is softened.... got to go!
                                                                 Cakes in the oven
                                                    7up cake #4! For granddad!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Are you Classy?

 As I approach my birthday, I always think back on the previous year and evaluate my progress. Did I do any growing Spiritually, Financially, Healthfully? With my answers I do not put myself down for unrealized goals I just revise my list and keep it moving!

 Why put yourself down when there are more than enough people in the world to do that for you? Not to say I don't have doubts or never come to a crossroad or two in my life. I just listen, wait, pray, talk to my friends , family and of course ancestors till the answer comes. Then.... I ACT! I move, I take an active roll in where my life will go! Yes, I have gone down a road only to be turned back to try again! That is life! It is all a school of sorts. The difference is, YOU have to find the lesson in it! All of the people you meet in life are teachers, situations you go through, and choices you make have a lesson attached. You learn your lesson and move up to the next level or... you repeat! It's your choice!

 So what lessons will today hold? What lessons are you in the middle of ? Which lessons have you passed? Which ones are giving you trouble? Which people are what teachers in your life?

Class is in..... Don't get left behind!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

RIP Heavy D

My condolences to his family! RIP
http://entertainment.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/11/08/8704886-report-rapper-heavy-d-dead-at-44

Welcome and Peace!

Well!

I never thought I would do such a thing as Blog! But here I am! I have created this page to encourage, inspire, support,  relate and connect to you! Who am I you ask ? I am a 13 year old teen mom. I am a 26 yo divorcee  with three small children in a new state! I am a Registered Nurse with 19 years under her belt who aspires to leave corporate healthcare and begin the journey to holistic and herbal healing and home births! I am a  daughter who lost her father in 2008. I am an aunt who lost her 15 Yo nephew to cancer 9 months after burying  her father! I am a woman who is developing her feminine power and teaching her daughters to do the same! I am a loving sister and friend who is here to offer my story to you to help you along your journey! I am and have been all these things so just light your candles, light an incense, and  sit back with your coffee or tea and feel the vibe. Laugh, cry, respond, give advice, ask questions or just ponder!

Thanks for stopping by!
Peace and Love